had a long talk with

had a long talk with PP at the end of a longer day... felt really good...
we had a major discussion about tying human characteristics to religion, as usual, it got nowhere...

at the end of 2 days and 1 and half nights spent in office, am feeling quite bad about the fact that all the effort went down the drain here at work... :-( sometimes i feel like i should stop working and start LIVING!!! why put in so much of effort, expectation and hope into something which does nothing but drain you, leaving you feeling like a numb carcass...

my head feels like a painters palette, with botches of reality in an attempt to create a greater truth... but yet the pallete in isolation speaks nothing...
Infact, the colours on the palette are the plebians who built the roads and arches that made the Caesars, the nameless battered man who made Alexander The Great, the stuntman who made makes the daring hero...

my head's all hazy and my eyelids are falling in love with eachother all over again... my hunger, the thirst, the urge to pee, the pain in my back thanks to the chair, my numbness in my legs 'cuz of keepin the crossed for too long, seem like they all dont quite affect me... i know they are there, but its like a harmonious existence of my self with the bodily discomfort, as my mind refuses to do its job...

the sole reality seems like the song in my ears... memories try to wedge their way in, but in vain and they beat the retreat...

ok right about now, i HAVE to pee, if not it will be a not-so-harmonious co existence..!